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my eyes suddenly lose the ability to focus. although this would be great for viewing those ridiculous 3D optical illusion pictures that they used to sell in malls everywhere during the 90's this does not fair well for visual based human navigation. light sources cause spots in my vision as if someone had just woken me up with a bright flashlight. i try to keep myself calm but i know what inevitably is to come. no this is not a stroke. if it were then doctors would know what to do about this. but they don't. i try to relax. if i can i close my eyes. after an hour of more of this short circuit in my optical function phase 2 sets in. part of my face goes numb. as with Novocaine i feel that everyone must see the effects of my lazy face but upon looking in the mirror i realize that there are no outward signs. i suffer alone. undetected. the numbness eventually spreads to one of my arms. motion in the arm becomes sensationless and labored as if i had fallen asleep on it. more scary than the lack of sensation is the knowledge of what is to come. feeling always returns before the onset of the excruciating mind pains. headaches so bad i can not even tell where exactly they are coming from in my skull. even my teeth and ear canals seem to hurt. nothing can be done except a shutdown hoping that things will return to normal when i finally reboot.