Perspective

Today was a tough day, and there are still 2 hours left. i've been struggling with sinus issues for a few days now, drove 2+ hours to go snowboarding to find mountain temperatures below freezing with 30+ mph winds (the website listed a good day for skiing, the people in the lodge with frostbite after a couple of runs may have written differently), ordered cheese-free tacos for lunch and got tacos with cheese in them (i'm lactose intolerant), had an evening soccer game: it's a 9 vs 9 league, we had 7 players show up, played goal the first half and felt like a duck at a shooting gallery, ran so much trying to cover extra guys the second half i thought i was going to taste those tacos again, scored a glorious goal with just minutes left in the game taking out two players on the other team in the process but still lost 2 to 131 (or something like that).

At first i felt that i probably should not have gotten out of bed this morning but now i realize that i've been so stuck 'in it' today that i have lost perspective. Now i'm not necessarily saying things could be worse, people who say such lines need to be punched (O.U.P.'d if you will). When you're in the middle of it things don't seem like they could be worse and saying so actually makes things worse. What i'm saying is that i need to change my perspective after days like today, otherwise i'm no good to myself or anyone else and you'll have to start keeping me away from belts and shoe laces.

i'm rapidly approaching 32, can't say i have any regrets in life, have found true love, have a house & stable job, don't have any terminal diseases (that i know of), have an amazing support group of friends & family, and i can go on and on.

Today i got to spend time in a car talking with a friend. Today i got to spend time with my brother (who i don't get to see enough). Today my significant other was able to come to my soccer game and see me score (something i usually don't do without her being involved, and a well placed mirror).

Pulling the perspective zoom back even further, the science geek in me combined with my spiritual side acknowledges (while looking up at the smiling Cheshire cat grin of tonight's moon) that in the scope of the stars out there in the universe, and all the galaxies, and all the planets: it's amazing that i just am. As i feel like a very mediocre person i must remember that the odds of these carbon atoms and electricity getting together in just the right way so that i can enjoy all i enjoy, and so that i can experience all that also causes me to suffer, is truly the unique and very un-mediocre aspect of my day. Oops, i think i can taste those tacos again.

While tallying up the events of today i may have come up with a loss, my record for the season still puts me in position to be a real contender in the playoffs (as long as i make it through the next hour or so).